In the end;you left

been quite sometime since i update my blog..lots of things is happening around me,makes me feel that i should built up a defence and protect myself..sighs..really feel so helpless..why is this happening?..izzit the cause of him that spoil my mood?..already tried my best to show a smile even when i am sad..whatever i do you always think that i dont respect you..and whatever you do always hurts me..why?..i really dont know what's the problem between us?..i tried my best to give you everything i can..you ask me to find a solution but there you are askin me to adapt to you when you dont even try askin me a single thing about how i feel?..you know how it feel when i am with you and yet you told my friends that we are actually not together anymore?..it really hurt alot..whatever you tried to do i dont know how to appreciate and whatever i do,you felt annoying?..so now i know..it doesnt mean that loving and trying to give in to someone mean happiness..its just making itself feel the misery..that is actually not supposed to be there..sometimes being in a coma and forget about everything..is much more better isnt it?..
i really wanted you to be my last and only..but in the end..you just leave me alone..sighs nothing feel better than being with you..maybe you were just using my love for you as a weakness and try to gain your advantage..when i have no more of use to you..you just shrug me off..as far as you can..

In my heart;I know we were meant to be?

Dear;stop the mind games'i am tired

Its 3.39 am in the morning..i just cant get to sleep..maybe there are just lots of questions wondering in my head thus i cant sleep..dear,why are there more saddness rather than happiness and laughter in our r/s?why?! am i really your gf?..will you be the one i can trust and settle down with you?..when you told me you hate marriage and you think being alone is better..have you ever thought about how i would feel..when all this words came out from your mouth yesterday?..i wish it was just you were drunk and talking nonsense..sighs..just left me alone down there at east coast and wth im drunk' why are you like this?..you just find me when you are bored right?..why are there such a gap i feel that it shouldnt be there in a r/s?..why?! just when i thought that you would be the guy i would be with always and there you go leaving me at east coast alone?..did i ever leave you alone..when you are drunk?..even went with you to cantonment for fear that it will be the last time i would see you,worrying for you..you cant see all this that is going on?..i dont need you to be a very good guy or some sort of prince charming?..but why leave me alone there always when i needed you the most..ask yourself have i ever not there when you needed me? huh? have i?..have i ever rejected you once?you dont even hold my hand when we go out and thus i feel that its the reason why we cant find each other yesterday..you let me wander off and flew off like a balloon and you dont care whether the balloon will come back a not;then where is the sense of security all girls needed?..i know i sometimes can be abit of attitude and unrational at times..but cant you see the changes?..i am putting in the effort?..what about you?..givng me false hope now and then..maybe what i can feel is that i am one of your exhibit in your museum, its yours and no one can touch it..and to see the exhibit need your permission..that what i always feel..isnt it?..sighs..i want my life to be colourful..i dont want it to be like this..God help me;give me the strength to carry on =(
TO BE CONTINUED;

爱我的话;给我回答

SCSY&&CTJW

stop the ARGUMENT !

heys it's me again..back blogging..just came back from jurong..had a argument with dear..sighs can we dont argue anymore ?..i am tired..sorry maybe i am really not a understanding gf..but i really hate lonliness..know that?..i didnt get the facts right and shouted at him..sighs..maybe really need some time to cool down before we talk about this matter=(i dont mind what my friends say about you..but why cant you trust me?..why?! i am not like them..you should know i wont go around and gossip about ppl what's more that person she said is YOU,my bf ..you should know me more..really damn SAD..=xhope everything will get better tmr..everything is so haywire for me now..got to find a solution to my mess i created,my studies..byes..to be updated again=))smiles


I don't care what people say;i am gonna stick with you,CTJW

some words are better left unsaid;

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hellos,its been a long time since i last touch my blog..LOL alot of things is goin haywire for me..why izzit like this?..my school,family..sighs..really want to give up but i cant just like what my 'ling' said..its a responsibility..went drinking last night with my ling..hahs drinking every weekend..LOL..hmms..ling starting work soon on wed..i will start to miss him by then..=x..sounds mushy but its the fact DUH' sighs gonna have to face Mr Alan when tue come..maybe studying isnt my cup of tea..but still i will carry on with it..no matter what cus i know what's best for me in the future=))..playing now doesnt bring me far..its last for awhile only..God tell me what to do?..dont want be stuck like this..its hurts alot..hoping that everything will goes back to normal again soon yeas?=DD
SCSY&&CTJW
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Estelle

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINA MEI ! sweet 17=D

hellos its just specially for you=))

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to GINA
happy birthday to YOU..
blow the candles and make a wish**

a year older le..must know how to think alrights?..
take good care and you are always miss-ed by me alrights?=DD

LOVESS,
SHIRLINE

no school for three days=)) yeas

hellos..sorry so long didnt update my blog..been busy..yeas..sighs..i got stuck at home due to one of my friends suspected of having H1N1..shag lo..been rottin at home..=x..should i go out later?..i know i should be a good girl and stay at home but its been 2 days le..i didnt went out..i am overwhelmed by too much things le..hahs..going out with tracia and buddy x.en on fri?..sorry to those of my friends i've left out all this while..=((jus no mood to step out of my house..got to find a job soon..going bankrupt soon..wahaha..lol..shall update real soon...t.caree guys

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Hellos:)

Woa..it seems so long i didnt post my blog=)been kinda busy recently..dont really have the time to post my blog..start of school today and i didnt go school..reason being-woke up late lo..hahs=D..so sian lehs still in holiday mood..hahs..sighs too much things happen in a holiday time?..why must all this things always happen to me?..=(the things i dreaded most..=(in r/s..sighs i am sorry maybe i cant be a good gf that why?i have my reason for being reserve to myself?..=(tryin my utmost best to forget everything=\ just sux..hmms what should i do now?..so BORED.shall update soon guys..LOVESS miss my friends in school..hahs thnks for the good times we spent together..=))..

signing off.
shirline.