♥ i just want to be happy.

In the end;you left

2009-09-21T19:04:00.004+08:00

been quite sometime since i update my blog..lots of things is happening around me,makes me feel that i should built up a defence and protect myself..sighs..really feel so helpless..why is this happening?..izzit the cause of him that spoil my mood?..already tried my best to show a smile even when i am sad..whatever i do you always think that i dont respect you..and whatever you do always hurts me..why?..i really dont know what's the problem between us?..i tried my best to give you everything i can..you ask me to find a solution but there you are askin me to adapt to you when you dont even try askin me a single thing about how i feel?..you know how it feel when i am with you and yet you told my friends that we are actually not together anymore?..it really hurt alot..whatever you tried to do i dont know how to appreciate and whatever i do,you felt annoying?..so now i know..it doesnt mean that loving and trying to give in to someone mean happiness..its just making itself feel the misery..that is actually not supposed to be there..sometimes being in a coma and forget about everything..is much more better isnt it?..
i really wanted you to be my last and only..but in the end..you just leave me alone..sighs nothing feel better than being with you..maybe you were just using my love for you as a weakness and try to gain your advantage..when i have no more of use to you..you just shrug me off..as far as you can..

In my heart;I know we were meant to be?

Dear;stop the mind games'i am tired

2009-08-26T03:38:00.001+08:00

Its 3.39 am in the morning..i just cant get to sleep..maybe there are just lots of questions wondering in my head thus i cant sleep..dear,why are there more saddness rather than happiness and laughter in our r/s?why?! am i really your gf?..will you be the one i can trust and settle down with you?..when you told me you hate marriage and you think being alone is better..have you ever thought about how i would feel..when all this words came out from your mouth yesterday?..i wish it was just you were drunk and talking nonsense..sighs..just left me alone down there at east coast and wth im drunk' why are you like this?..you just find me when you are bored right?..why are there such a gap i feel that it shouldnt be there in a r/s?..why?! just when i thought that you would be the guy i would be with always and there you go leaving me at east coast alone?..did i ever leave you alone..when you are drunk?..even went with you to cantonment for fear that it will be the last time i would see you,worrying for you..you cant see all this that is going on?..i dont need you to be a very good guy or some sort of prince charming?..but why leave me alone there always when i needed you the most..ask yourself have i ever not there when you needed me? huh? have i?..have i ever rejected you once?you dont even hold my hand when we go out and thus i feel that its the reason why we cant find each other yesterday..you let me wander off and flew off like a balloon and you dont care whether the balloon will come back a not;then where is the sense of security all girls needed?..i know i sometimes can be abit of attitude and unrational at times..but cant you see the changes?..i am putting in the effort?..what about you?..givng me false hope now and then..maybe what i can feel is that i am one of your exhibit in your museum, its yours and no one can touch it..and to see the exhibit need your permission..that what i always feel..isnt it?..sighs..i want my life to be colourful..i dont want it to be like this..God help me;give me the strength to carry on =(
TO BE CONTINUED;

爱我的话;给我回答

SCSY&&CTJW

stop the ARGUMENT !

2009-08-20T01:23:00.004+08:00

heys it's me again..back blogging..just came back from jurong..had a argument with dear..sighs can we dont argue anymore ?..i am tired..sorry maybe i am really not a understanding gf..but i really hate lonliness..know that?..i didnt get the facts right and shouted at him..sighs..maybe really need some time to cool down before we talk about this matter=(i dont mind what my friends say about you..but why cant you trust me?..why?! i am not like them..you should know i wont go around and gossip about ppl what's more that person she said is YOU,my bf ..you should know me more..really damn SAD..=xhope everything will get better tmr..everything is so haywire for me now..got to find a solution to my mess i created,my studies..byes..to be updated again=))smiles

I don't care what people say;i am gonna stick with you,CTJW

some words are better left unsaid;

2009-08-08T23:32:00.008+08:00

i want watch this movies (:

hellos,its been a long time since i last touch my blog..LOL alot of things is goin haywire for me..why izzit like this?..my school,family..sighs..really want to give up but i cant just like what my 'ling' said..its a responsibility..went drinking last night with my ling..hahs drinking every weekend..LOL..hmms..ling starting work soon on wed..i will start to miss him by then..=x..sounds mushy but its the fact DUH' sighs gonna have to face Mr Alan when tue come..maybe studying isnt my cup of tea..but still i will carry on with it..no matter what cus i know what's best for me in the future=))..playing now doesnt bring me far..its last for awhile only..God tell me what to do?..dont want be stuck like this..its hurts alot..hoping that everything will goes back to normal again soon yeas?=DD
SCSY&&CTJW
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cheryl's birthday=DD

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Estelle

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINA MEI ! sweet 17=D

2009-07-16T01:19:00.003+08:00

hellos its just specially for you=))

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to GINA
happy birthday to YOU..
blow the candles and make a wish**

a year older le..must know how to think alrights?..
take good care and you are always miss-ed by me alrights?=DD

LOVESS,
SHIRLINE

no school for three days=)) yeas

2009-07-15T19:47:00.011+08:00

hellos..sorry so long didnt update my blog..been busy..yeas..sighs..i got stuck at home due to one of my friends suspected of having H1N1..shag lo..been rottin at home..=x..should i go out later?..i know i should be a good girl and stay at home but its been 2 days le..i didnt went out..i am overwhelmed by too much things le..hahs..going out with tracia and buddy x.en on fri?..sorry to those of my friends i've left out all this while..=((jus no mood to step out of my house..got to find a job soon..going bankrupt soon..wahaha..lol..shall update real soon...t.caree guys

PHOTOS taken at ECP&SENTOSA=)) enjoy!

DAWN&SHIRLINE

AT SENTOSA

AT ECP WITH CLASSMATES=))

CLASS HB=DD

Hellos:)

2009-07-06T09:28:00.002+08:00

Woa..it seems so long i didnt post my blog=)been kinda busy recently..dont really have the time to post my blog..start of school today and i didnt go school..reason being-woke up late lo..hahs=D..so sian lehs still in holiday mood..hahs..sighs too much things happen in a holiday time?..why must all this things always happen to me?..=(the things i dreaded most..=(in r/s..sighs i am sorry maybe i cant be a good gf that why?i have my reason for being reserve to myself?..=(tryin my utmost best to forget everything=\ just sux..hmms what should i do now?..so BORED.shall update soon guys..LOVESS miss my friends in school..hahs thnks for the good times we spent together..=))..

signing off.
shirline.

he is going soon'10 more days to go=(

2009-06-22T14:22:00.003+08:00

hellos..back to posting again..i am at paul's house..just gave him e cardthat i wrote for him..hahs..i touching right?..lols..would he appreciate or he would read and just throw it one side?..sighs..i doe noe...you want to me to forget you?..but izzit really that easy forgetting someone?..i also hope that i can forget you..maybe after you left i would feel better..cus i would harbour no hopes in seeing you le..='(right?but i would really miss you..from the start when i like you i had already know it will be like that de..but some girls are stupid..just like me..they know that the outcome is like that they still wanna carry on doing it...sighs..life still has to move on..w/o him i wouldnt die but i would feel as if something is missing..sighs..we cant predict what will happen next and no one knows the future..maybe i would forget him soon..=)later meeting cheryl at bugis first..not sure whether still goin Holland Village..can you all confirm with me?..hmms..PS:Paul,take good care of yourself when you are out there..i miss you~byes shall stop here..to be continued=)..

I HATE THE MIXED FEELINGS'

LOVESS,
SHIRLINE

Its school holiday again'

2009-06-15T23:07:00.003+08:00

any comments readers?..i want to watch this two show=)

hellos,back to posting again=)its school holiday again..so bored at home..sighs-__-last weekend went out with ryan and cheryl to KBOX..and its cost us $107..so damn expensive la..regret going there man..but we had our fun too..i promise i wont go there again lo-__-..hmms where shall i got tmr?..actually meeting Paul but he had to settle his Sydney stuffs..sighs he is going off soon..July is coming..wish him all the best in whatever he do ba..-_^..hmms..really feel that BENSON KOH JIAN ZHI is a low down creature..put my name and number in people blog?why do all this kind of things?...so despicable..really hate him..just because you cant get me,my heart..so you do this kind of things?...u just sux la..yucks..irritatted with you..there is something call IP CODE you know?..u are damn stupid la..sighs..cant blame you..you are a low I.Q freak..pity you at times..i hope you will grow up soon..=)..can all this despicable people get away from my life?...what did i do to deserve this?..im not angry,i am just upset that why i get to know all this kind of people..GOD,please teach them to grow up can?..why must they do all this?..do they feel satisfied doing all this?..sighs..really dont understand..everything is going to be past soon..not going to let it affect my mood..=)happy always..hahs..lt nature take it course..byes readers..miss my baby lots lots..=)

LOVESS,
SHIRLINE

the single lady.

2009-06-10T18:02:00.005+08:00

hellos..doe now what to post but feel kinda bored..hahs..lols..hmms..alot of thing has been happening this few days..broke up with him..hahs..much relax now..no need everytime quarrel..more better this way..back to my single life i can play again..hahs..maybe he is just plain childissh and doe noe how to think lo..readers..if you were to be in my situation i think u would hate this guy to the core..hahs..=)wat over is over..lols..doe wish to think so much..he can be a good friend but not a good stead..BKJZ if you are reading my blog now let me tell you this...im so happy with my life now..i will live better w/o you..u are my worst bf ever for all this years.. capable of doing anything..even have to worry about a meal..sighs..pity u alot seriously..everyday just rot..want to play but dont know how to work hard..you may think i have a attitude problem..but no one has ever say to me like how you did..so i really hate you..thinkin that you have no wrong at all..and so irresponsible..uncaring,ungentleman,girls who are with you really had a hard life..only know how to use ppl money dont know how to earn...when im with you..nearly went bankrupt ar..know how use gal money..he is paying me my money this sat..but 70 dollars u really think u owe me that little?what about my ciggarettes,e food ar?..i jus dont want to be so caculative with you this small boy who has no $$..
BENSON KOH JIAN ZHI
YOU ARE JUST NOT A IDEAL TYPE FOR GIRLS..you simply sux..spoil my mood writing about you..-__-..pls la..grow up kiddo..no wonder your every ex also got problems..now i know why...hahs..yucks..a dirt under my feet..hahs byes reader if you know who i am talkin about please beware of him..all the things i write about him is truth..not RUMORS.

.SY ♥ SC.

HEY im BACK'

2009-06-08T18:49:00.006+08:00

THIS IS ALL OVER,ITS ALL PAST
readers continue to read my blog
and you will understand*thnks

PHOTOS OF ME AND BABY AT ECP=)

he is mine*

we are e retards..hahs

babylovess'BKJZ&SCSY

hellos..so long nv post blog le...kinda busy..this few days..just back from campin with my baby at east coast..hahs..so tired sighs there are fun times and bad times there..e 4 days 3 nights..quarrel with my baby..so sadd..=(my baby is still angry with me...
what shall i do?..hmms..im really tired but somehow its hurt to let go..i doe wish to let go..
baby will you hold my hand tight forever?..sighs..school,family,friends?...who really know me well and i can believe in?..even some of my friends are hypocrites in my life..take hanlong as a example..i really dont believe he would say this kind of things about me behind my back...OMG..sighs..everything just sux right now..GOD tell me what to do can?...i really dont like my life now..sighs..=(BKJZ..i love you..if i said i need you right now,would you come?..

LOVESS
SCSYloveBKJZ'

the feeling is gone

2009-05-29T19:17:00.005+08:00

hellos everyone=)so long didnt post my blog le..so sians..to day didnt went school..oops..can wake up lo..lols dont know how to face teacher on mon le..hope he wont ask..hahs..ytd after school went to find PLZY'oh he is sick..heart pain lo...buy strepsils for him and hope he recover soon..hmms God did you answer to my prayers?..then why is he sick? slak at his house till 5 plus went eat dinner with him at Kovan..then play pool till 7 plus..he went to meet his friends..and i went home..sighs..WHEN I SEE YOU,I RAN OUT OF WORDS TO SAY..when is the next time we were meet again?he seems to have another girl in life le..shag la..ytd use his laptop and saw another girl msn..they chattin and i accidentally saw their converstion..e girl look so bitch la..sighs..what thing do at where?...and what thing night anywhere can de?..sighs..why he is asking this and why is she saying like that?!..shag la..they sure to have something on..sighs dont know la..dont wish to think anymore..make me heartache..-__-God tell me,teach me how to do can?...hurhurs..so tired..but i still love him..give me the courage to ask him things i dont dare can?..went to meet Dominic just now..ate e pasta he cooked slack awhile then went home..hmms later going where ne?..meet Peiling or Benson?..can you all confirm with me soon?..im gonna rot at home..sians la..byes readers..=)PLZY YOU MAKING ME GO CRAZY...

took it when he was sleeping..shh.. =)

WITH LOVESS,
SHIRLINE

TAT SCHOOL GIRL'

2009-05-24T19:29:00.002+08:00

Just woke up..feeling so sleepy...ytd went to RED RAIN concert..was fun..full of hard rock music and sentimental ones too..hahs..after that slack a while at HOGC till 10 plus..thn went to meet Benson..went to cine to sing K..sing till siao can 12 plus sing till 6 in e morning..hahs.ytd met him dont really have any changes..just that e new piercing and tattoo..sighs..he said that i CHANGE? or izzit you who had CHANGE?..we seems to have drifted..dont wish to care so much le..i just wanna be happy..=D..who can bring my real smile back to me again..i shall be yours..hahs..talkin nonsense..shall stop here le..nth much to post lo..=x TO BE UPDATE SOON..

<3shirline,

tired of everything'

2009-05-21T23:30:00.001+08:00

hies readers of my blog..hmms..today school was bored..ended at 2 went home after that..met up with Hanlong,Li Ren,Jason and Wei Sheng...went to watch movie the movie Muay Thai fire ball at E-Hub.. the fighting part abit gruesome la..lols..but afterall the show was nice..=)sighs..feelin so moody now..quarrel with baobei again or i should Benson...few days of quarreling im sick already..forget about it..everyone have to move on in life,there is always UPS and DOWNS..not contacting you is the best..we just cant seems to click..maybe im really a attitude girl?..or am i too sensitive..God can you tell me what to do?..intial thought was that being loved is happiness..but the person being loved feel the pain too?perhaps we are really not suitable to be together but still i wanna say sorrry for tolerating my nonsense this 1 wk or so..sighs really having a moodswing now..so dont come and irritate me..you wont like it..=(..its just sux to be in love now..maybe i dont love myself that why i cant really find someone that i really love..can anyone just slow down and really spare athought for me?pls?..can no longer find e peace in my heart that i used to had before..feel terrible..is there something that i can do that i can forget about everything sad and unhappy..exams coming..stressed up..gotta work hard le..hahs you taught me a lesson and that is dont care for the person if the person dont care for you..wont even spare a thought for anyone anymore if the person doe even bother about me..i gotta leave you behind and move on with life..=Xshall stop here..Paul LZY i miss you'
I had always and only wanted you Paul;
I DONT WANT TO BE COMMITED IN RELATIONSHIP ANYMORE 'IM TIRED
NOT FOR THE TIME BEING I GUESS

TO BE CONTINUED. YUAN<3

cant hide my feelings'

2009-05-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

liquors and beers provided in the suites

Jus love to cam-whore

cam-whoring in progress

the view taken inside'=D

reflection of us'

stairways in presidential suites

Does Matthew look like Mr Bean?=)

Matthew,Vivien and Mr Alan

hellos..so long nv update my blog..hahs..kinda busy with lots of things..lols..wen to Fullerton Hotel today..so grand and so high class..it make me look more forward to working in hotel-line
yeah!..hahs..there are some photos of the hotel taken at presidential and governal suites,do you know how much it cost to stay in Presidential suites?.1,900 dollars..wth-__-****ing ex lo just for a night..lols we have Matthew and Vivien guiding us showing us the hotel.. there are 399 hotels rooms in Fullerton..hahs..if onli attachment i can work here..i would be more than contented le..lol=D..went to eat at Marina Square after that with Kat,Kai Ting,Teresa and Shu Min..shop awhile and went home around 8plus..tired after whole day and leg aching like hell..stupid heels
sighs..i HATE my love life..July is coming soon..sadds..i cant imagine when he is gone..what would i do?..will i be crying or i have already forget him?...sighs..can anyone tell me what to do?..
and to my baobei i just feel that we are two different world people..=Xjust cant seems to click..what to do?..quarrel with him again just now...shag ar..i really have a attitude problem?..aiyo i will try to change alrights?..sorry..but i really got to tell you that no one can replace Paul LZY in my heart..he is e only one i love...feeling really unappreciated lo..=(no one know how im feeling..do i look like a toy to you all ar?..sighs just want to concentrate on my studies for now..prayin that miracles will happen..=)hmms shall stop here le..to be continued

SHIRLINE

its time to let go?

2009-05-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

taken by shirline0.oFirdaus,Nicholas

hellos..back to post blog..sorry so long no update..today school was fun..had alot of laughing with classmates..school ended early due to no assembly..-__-dont see the reason in them havin assb?..hahs lols..after school walk to clementi Mrt with Firdaus and Shang Neng..hahs..funny joker both of them..gonna put Fidaus photo up later..lols keep on taking photos of me..wth..hahs
after that meet my baobei Benson..went his house play L4D..haha..i think i addicted to this game le..die ar lols ate baobei fried de fish and noodles..so sweet of him..hahs...sighs..sometimes wondering wat love really is?..baobei i really dont wan hurt you..not that i dont wan to be with you..its just my own probs..im still thinking of him...met him the other day..no changes..went this house play L4D..he is the one that taught me to play this game..and maybe i will like this game partly is beceause of him..sighs..PLZY..you always make me feel so inferior..i dont wish to think of you but i cant..i know you will not even think of me..you will only call me when you need me to be there?..am i really that ugly u dont want accept me? or izzit really you got phobia and u going overseas?..i really hope you wont go..sighs..its just a wishful thinking of mine..that is not gonna happen..paul how i wish i dont know you from e start:/sighs..pretend to be happy when i am with you..but im not..hais..act as if i dont miss you?act as if i dont love you?...all fake..sighs..i dont know when i can forget you totally..but i hope e day will come soon..i miss you~LOVESS,to be continued...
his bunny charcoal is missed by me*
but i miss his owner more=D
taken by shirline0.o

hurt me no more'

2009-05-11T12:22:00.000+08:00

My Gandi..taken when he wasnt lookin

that no life girl*LOL

Jie and Di always

isnt this pose of him cool?

hellos=D back to post my blog again..tis few days no time to post blog..coming back late..hahs yesterday went play pool with my Gan di Benson,Hanlong,Jason and Wei Sheng at Yio Chu Kang..quite fun..yeas after that i went to eat dinner with them at Geylang..lols..me and di eat nasi lemak..and they eat chicken rice..standard de..hahs..after that went to Lorong 14 to see see..so many prostitue down there...standing there..wth..and those china uncles lookin at me make them laugh..they keep teasing me..they think im a item ar..$50..hahs..nvm as long as i know im not one of them can already..slack there till 9plus..went to take mrt with my Gan di..so touching sent me home yesterday..hahs..reach there at 11 plus..then got some stupid daiji regarding Benson Ex things..lame ar?..can they grow up and not act and talk like that?..2009 le..still gangster..sighs when i come out tiong they still suckin milk lors...talk so much..forget it..past is e past..supposed to go school today but i forgot to set my alarm and i didnt went to school..aiyo mus go take mc le..ma fan la..meetin Paul today but was cancelled because he had to go out in e mid afternoon to collect some stuffs..nvm shall meet him tmr..hahs...i miss you alots..mwrakks..lookin forward..lols..we are back to talkin terms..i had a dream you know that you left for Australia le..i wake up i kept crying..its may seems stupid to you but i fallen so deep that i dont know how to pull myself up..how i wish u wont go..but that is ur dreams and future..sighs [jus say it out and i will wait for you]..TO BE CONTINUED.

LOVESS,
PLZY

just another day

2009-05-08T15:41:00.000+08:00

hellos=D,today im not late for school..luckily but my class rep say that im late??..wtf..she is irritating..a hypocrite..i took e same mrt with her and she say that im late...luckily Mr Alan believe what i say and tell her off..humpx idiots..reaaly cannot stand it having this kind of ppl in my class..dots..speechless after break went to MPH to watch the event of ITE GOT TALENT..hahs..some of them sang and dance really well..like the one singing If i Aint got you byAlicia Keys and Nobody by Wondergirls...not forgetting their dance..quite creative i must say went home 20 mins before 12pm..lols just received a call from ITE..i think it must be about why i didnt stay at school till 3pm..if you read my previous post you know what i meant..lols i dont want to stay..so bored..hahs went to help out my mum shop and help out again..sighs..e auntie workin there know im a smoker le..cus she went out for lunch and when she come back i was attending to customer and i just left my ciggs on e table as i dont want to let her saw it..n it caused a mark on the table..sorry mum and dad for a leaving a mark there and not putting up a good image infront of outsiders..sighs 0.o so shag..went home at two plus..cant face her anymore..ps lo..supposed to go out with Hanlong and Jason to CCK later..but not going due to some reasons..irritatin..never inform me earlier..-__-who is willin to accompy me later?sobs..so bored and alone..sister went out with bf..sighs..a borin day'..guess ii will have to spent alone at home again..__________he never contact me again?..sighs wondering what you are doing now?miss you lots..loads of things to tell you..but when i see you im speechless..this is how im feelin right now and what i feel about you:
You're everything I thought you never wereAin't nothing like a thought could have beenStill, you live inside of meSo tell me how is thatYou're the only one I wish I could forgetThe only one I love to not forgiveAnd though you break my heartYou're the only oneAnd though there are times when I hate you'Cause I can't eraseThe times that you hurt meAnd put tears on my faceAnd even now while I hate youIt pains me to sayI know I'll be thereAt the end of the dayI don't wanna be without you babeI don't want a broken heartDon't wanna take a breath without you babeI don't wanna play that partI know that I love youBut let me just sayI don't wanna love youIn no kind of way, no noI don't want a broken heartI don't wanna play the broken-hearted girlNo, no, no broken-hearted girlSomething that I feel I need to sayBut untill now I've always been afraidThat you would never come aroundAnd still I wanna put this outYou say you got the most respect for me butSometimes I feel you're not deserved of meAnd still you're in my heartBut you're the only oneAnd yes, there are times when I hate youBut I don't complain'Cause I've been afraid thatYou would walk awayOh but now I don't hate youI'm happy to sayThat I will be thereAt the end of the dayI don't wanna be without you babeI don't want a broken heartDon't wanna take a breath without you babeI don't wanna play that partI know that I love youBut let me just sayI don't wanna love youIn no kind of way, no noI don't want a broken heartI don't wanna play the broken-hearted girlNo, no, no broken-hearted girlNow I met a place I thought I'd never be, ohI'm living in a world whereas all about you and me, yeahAnd I won't be afraid, my broken heart as freeTo spread my wings and fly away, away with youI don't wanna be without my babyI don't want a broken heartDon't wanna take a breath without my babeDon't wanna take a breath without my babe

everything jus change'

2009-05-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

hellos~today was late for school..hahs..10plus then reach..lols..luckily i went in to the class during their toliet break and Mr Elvin didnt notice students coming in and i slipped in(BEA lessons is cancelled today,teacher sick)..stupid la..went to call Mr Alan..before i went in class..and i hai myself tio stay back tmr shouldnt be so honest hahs...i dont think i will stay back..hahs..forgive me sir,hahs i will be crazy if i stay back my friends would had gone home and he expect me to stay back just to play computer?..sighs i doe wan..i know he dont want me to add to the class late fund..hahs but tmr its fri..doe wan la..plss?..=[ had pizza hut for lunch with Pei Ting, Shu Min and Kat..was nice and affordable..hahs..but e service there was like diaos..staffs fallin down,breaking glasses and shouting here and there wth?..doe like one of the staff there..so strict,shouted at one of the new crew just because she is senior staff,nobody would be happy working in that kind of enviroment..something is wrong with the way of them planning staffs..its was lunch crowd and they only had three-four staffs running whole restaraunt?..lols..no one clearing tables and sending orders out..we were like waiting for around one hour..sighs0.o went to my mum shop after lunch help her out awhile bought things at BPP and went home around 8plus..tired~sighs he didnt contact me again~..will we still get to meet up?..i miss you..*wondering when you will msg or call me..sighs..u always stay in a part of me..PLZY*whatever i do i will still think of you,its irritatin la..and now i only can pretend i treat you only as a friend cus i noe nth will come out of it..should have trust my heart the first time i know you..and that is i cant get near you n know you more..shuldnt have let you have the chance to lead me on and gave me false hopes..i really hope time can HEAL everything..:(..byes will continue next time..

LOVESS,
YUAN

wasting life? but that's life

2009-05-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

MY MOOD:NEUTRAL:]
hies..back to my continued post..just came back from meetin Hanlong and Jason pei them eat dinner and slack..but its like so far...they must be touched alrights..i came all the way from clementi after school go find them(they stay at east side lehs)can cry ar-__-..school was e same today..sighs bored0.o changed my route to school decided to take MRT rather than bus..stupid traffic jam always make me late to school..lols..MRT is faster but cramp..squeeze my way through in e MRT with Farid..hahs..but its worth it..at least im not late..hahs=)saw Shan Neng on the way to school..i was like walkin damn fast still can spot me..wth..but i was faster than him..cus his bus is slow due to jam..hahs.. race with the bus..lols idiot Shan Neng took my hp steal so many songs..hahs..silly him o.0 after school took MRT with Firdaus,Shan Neng and Dina..hahs joke and laugh all the way to Tampines..laugh till so spoil image..cus of Shan Neng and Firdaus..from tmr onwards Shan Neng shall be named as Neng ar..lols..my nick for him..cus his name so hard to pronounce..wth..but his name is quite meaningful when he told us the meaning..hmms..ate fried prawn noodles for dinner at KOPITIAM at tampines outlet..not nice de..so dry..bleahs..doe go there eat..hahs..went home at 9plus..took a cab..cus it was quite late and i miss my bed alot..lols..sighs..i miss him again..yesterday took e courage to talk to him again..hais..its still e same..anything but LOVE..sighs0.o when can i really meet someone who really love me for who i am?..im so tired..he say that he still like me?..for what tell me all this? lead me on and make me hurt again?!..huh izzit?..i had enough i dont want..its tired to hate somene..but i cant pretend that it never happened..i only can make myself occupied and not think about him..if you still have a heart..doe do this to me..i cant take it..i just want to be there as a friend for you till july and no more contact?..sighs..how i wish i can turn back time..childish tinking..he is too matured for me..our thinking are damn different..right PLZY? gonna sleep le..goodnights..you make me lose faith in LOVE..i want to hate you half as much as i love you can i?:( tc my readers,tell me what to do?

LOVESS.

my futuree?

2009-05-05T16:14:00.001+08:00

hellos..here to post again..return from school at 1 plus went to buy uniform..diaos..sighs why must uniform be long sleeved seh?..so hot man..can melt ar..today lesson was alrights did lots of typing OFA subject..but when it come to BEA..felt like sleeping..i dont know why when this teacher open her mouth to teach i feel like sleeping..hahs mdm saddiah can you change the way of teaching?..seriously if this carry on im gonna flunk for your subjects?..all e SME business thingy is not going into my head lo..hahs help~this is one of the core modules i must pass..i aim a GPA of 4..so i must perservere..=)hahs..tmr PE again..since e starting of my school i have not seen my PE teacher..but i know its a guy..he is always absent if not our PE is cancelled..wth..nv get to see this teacher..its like so long la..apr till now..lols..just finish doing my BEA homework..hmms ben potato already got his test for BEA..and he FAILED..there is always UPS and DOWNS..im sure you will pass the next time round alrights?..doe be sad=)hmms..feelin so bored now what to do next?..oh ya go and buy a thumbdrive for my OFA assignments..almost forgot..sighs so tired of everything..what if all this i do never acheive the results and outcome i want?.should i give up?..so sick..can i really make it?..i dont know but i will try my best=)yeas...its two days since your last msg..and im beginning to miss you again..did you put a spell on me:/?why izzit so hard to forget you?..you have yours dreams and long list of things you want to do..i wont hinder or bother your way cus i have my dreams and goals to acheive too...keeping myselff occupied makes think lesser of you? i dont know..but i know..i really hope to see you before you are gone..and i think by that time i would be cryin non stop like crazy?-__- i really hope i wont..cus it is terrible lo..i really want to talk to you but how?..i think im already a stranger to you...i have no courage anymore..really sick of being hurt again and again..i just want to be happy..you are MATURED,IM CHILDISH..but i really hope that your phobia will soon go away alrights..i was always thinking why izzit not that you have know some other girls..why me?!why must you let me fall into this trap..??...why? and you just left me dangling there..stuck there dont know what to do...sighs i also want to move on with my life..but..i cant..closed the doors to those that love me,rejected them..can i say that you're cruel..?sighs..i hope the day will faster come that i can say i forget you and move on with my life, paul LZY.....TO BE CONTINUED..

a school girl once again

2009-05-04T13:56:00.000+08:00

hellos:D came back from school..today's lesson was boring didnt do much..felt happy that it ended at 11 hahs..sighs but after that went to the toliet to cover up my flaws that is not accepted in school..bunded and clip up my hair..cus i had colour on my hair..hahs..but luckily my DM still ask me me to maintain my looks..hahs if only he saw my hair colour..i would b DEAD..lols its so troublesome i still had to make up and wear heels to school aiyo what kind of rules is that man im not going for modelling lehs hahs..sighs..wat to do..tat's school life..hahs after school went to slack awhile with my classmates..do things that cant be done in school-__-hahs we were so quiet already at the void deck..n yet e residents complain to our school that we were noisy?..we just reached like 5 mins ago and there comes our DM..wth?..sighs..confiscated our ez link pass..but i aint stupid..i took back my ezlink cus i told my DM i would be having a function later..hahs..if not i would have to wait till 5pm..its like wth..so long..(function refers to meetin Hanlong later..hahs) i told a lie..if not i cant meet you..touching right?..i risk for you kays..luckily that DM didn t check my bag if not..aiyo die ar..sorry friends didnt meant to PS you all..they should be at school till 5pm to collect back their ez link pass..hmms..later going paya lebar with Hanlong accompanying me to extend my hair..n also to take out my coloured extension..hahs..dont want to be like a tortoise hide from teacher everytime they walk pass..-__-say byes to my coloured hair..hahs goin chai chee after?...hmms maybe..=)stupid DM..slack also got wrong..damnit..ok shall stop here..TO BE CONTINUED..Tell me how to do to make things between you and me right again..i miss you'its a feelin i never had before..sighs a person i used to dislike turned out to be e person i love so much..its sux

LOVESS,
YUAN

all good things come to an end

2009-05-04T11:27:00.000+08:00

hellos..come to post again..=)im so bored..wake up at 5 plus..didnt go out today..shags..cus tmr got school..i know myself too well..if i go out in the night...i wont come back till the next morning..hahs..if go out..i wont be able to go school tomorrow..lols..my grandma so touching..knew that i have not eaten..she cooked for me and my sister..sighs..dont feel like going school tomorrow man..mondays blues..sighs=(..i dont know how long i can continue to go school..cus studyin is not my type..but for the future..i must persevere..hahs..lols..stupid talkin..lols..kays lahs shall stop here..continue next time..lalalas..prayin you are fine always'missin you..PLZY=(

Praying that you are fine always

2009-05-03T19:41:00.000+08:00

hellos;im bk to blog again:D so long never blog it felts weird..hahs this few months alot of things happen..sighs...freinds in and outta of my life?..i doe noe watever i do izzit right or wrong..but i just want to be there for him when he need me..be his needs..i doe care about any status anymore..cus in the end its jus a name..jus want to treasure e every sec n mins with him till he is gone for good..how i wish tat july wont come..cus it will be e day he will be gone and maybe i cant even see him?..sighs..you can say im silly but maybe that is love..PLZY,maybe you think that im foolish,im stupid..but you have made me fallen so deep into a trap?..be it a trap or geniune..i dont know why im always so stuck in love..i also hope i can FORGET YOU,PLZY..but i cant..it sux..you make me feel this way..do you know how i feel?..sighs..shall stop talking about this..yesterday went to drink with my friends at boat quay[blue blazze]..drank martell and tower...went with Hanlong,Jason,Rayson,Rayson's Dad and Mum,Wei Sheng and my sis..thanks for the happy times you all give me..really appreciate it..hahs.but yesterday something happened..i slapped someone..he is a guy who tried to take advaantage of me..thanks to Jason,Hanlong and Rayson for helping me to speak up..although we are just friends..but you all let me feel that true friends does exist..love you all*hahs..went to Rayson's house after that continue to chit chat with Rayson's mum.Hanlong and my sis till 5 plus..hahs..Jason and Wei Sheng koncked out le..hahs.drank too much le bahs..Hanlong liquor improve le..nv KO after that..hahs..congrats LVL UP..lols tmr school day again..monday blues..-__-shags..shall stop here le..byes continue nxt time'LOVESS im praying for you eveyday that you are fine and healthy..living each day to the fullest..i really hope to see you before you go..PLZY..i miss you

sick of e lyfe here*

2008-11-18T16:07:00.000+08:00

heys bk updatin moi blog again..really sick of tis lyfe herei owaes tot tt in dere r all hypocrites..didnt noe tt out there..there ish still more..hais..hope nxt yr will cm soon..doe noe hw long more i cn stand tis kind of lyfe..sickenin lyfe..sumtyme feel tt livin in tis werld is a misery..dont you tink so?..hmmms i noe tt nt all e tings ie wan will turn out e wae i wan..bt at least let me hv a peaceful lyfe..*78 daes to go*ie cn do it de...true fwens no nit much jus one will do..smiles..continue nxt tyme..~

im countin e daes'lalalas~79daes

2008-11-18T08:01:00.000+08:00

it ish mon again..79 daes to go..hope tis everything will end soon..can't stand it anymore..had a quarrel w cuizhen..sadded lors..if she had onli chnge her attitude n everything..none of tis things will happened right?..doe understand lahs..tis sat im goin indoor stadium w shin min..to sell ice cream..anyone wanna join?..lols..borin lor.. go there c mickey mouse..lols..hope it wont b crowded..9am-8pm..byes shall continue nxt tyme!..

LOVES.
yuan

Suspension is over!

2008-11-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

heys..bk to werk again!..finally im left w 2-digits..sick of tis lyfe le..argh..whn DEC cm it will b 3daes2nytes fer mie again..smiles hope everything will b over soon..i tink mie n him r no more..nt even fwens?..hmms sowie fer those readin moi blog de..so long nv update..due to suspension inside..it really sux..hais' no lyfe in me..mayb wat you sae ish true?..shall stop here le..byes

LOVES,
YUAN.

sowie to those of moi fwens whu wanna mit mie*

2008-06-22T04:00:00.000+08:00

halos~ so long nv update moi blog le..hahs no tyme plus i lazy lo..lols..those of moi fwens whu noe mie well shld noe y i hv no tyme..moi outin w yoyo n huiling on thursday was quite fun bt huiling had fever..so she was feelin v tired n sick..recover soon kays..smiles..sowie to let u all wait fer mie so long tat tyme..hahs paiseh"...n as fer peizhen..i w mit or cor ue whn i resume moi 3daes2nytes H/L kays?..u r nt forgotten..tc kays gonna stop here
hugs *all shirline nit ish patience to tolerate e lyfe in dere*:)
so moody todae..buais

*yuannitpatience*

mayb' ie reali misundrstood ue?..

2008-06-01T17:53:00.001+08:00

hies bk to post again..everyday werkin..so sian lo..i wan go bk lahs..:(hurhur..abt e misunderstandin i had wif ue..i'm realis sowie if ie misunderstood ue..i shouldn,t hav behave tis wae n shouldn't hv bear grudges against ue..bt ie realis feel tat we hv drifted alot n cn nv go bk to past tyme we had..i shouldn't hv get angri over tis xiao bai over ue..which ie feel he is a f***er..hais its nw none of moi prob le..haha b happi n smiles owaes!sally doe worry ue owaes b moi fwen..

*xiaoyuanmishinsakai*

we've drifted veri far..no longer fwens?..

2008-05-27T10:20:00.000+08:00

hies..so sian lo..werkin everydae..whn cn ie go hm seh?..i mish ue*ELLYNA*as for xiao bai..i tink i nit tu move on..no use clinging onto a person whu is lyk a f***er..n i realis hate her yees..lookin so innocent..lyk a slut..doe sae ue will hurt moi feelin tat ue didnt tell me aniting abt XB..eu ask mie whether ie still lyk XB..i tink ish ue fall in love wif him le bahs..hahs..i doe hv a fwen lyk ue..ie hatee ue..! congrats to myself for forgettin him tis fcuker xiaobai..n to ue i will treat as if i doe noe ue tis fwen..

i tink im in love'

2008-05-23T14:03:00.000+08:00

hies first time postin..doe quite lyk bloggin de..is under influence of moi sis n fwen..tats wat make me strt to post..hahs..feelin quite sad actualli..cus one of moi fwen d/c le..kinda mish'him'..[ellyna]
didnt get to c her fer e last time cus she went lockup..bodoh hais..
hurhur..so sian..nw at werk [haagen dazs]..moi lyfe ish lyk a routine lo..feel tat sho suay tis whole week..hope everything were go well fer me'plsss?..I MISS HER

LOVES
YUAN